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21.8.19

Badass Sailormoon

Even though aku baru sahaja masuk usia 30 an now, chewah perlulah mention baru sahaja kan.

Aku masih lagi fetish eh obses dgn sailormoon.

Dulu kecik2 suka tgok scene sailormoon bertukar sbb seksi gitu wahaha

Tp punca aku minat melukis sbb sailormoon dan dragon ball lah.

So aku pun lukis lah sailormoon tp dia pakai space suit ahaha ala ala badass gitu
N then aku print n cuba jual di etsy hahah ada la sorg dua beli.

Aku masih prefer sailormoon yg seksi lagi bahaha. Dgn cahaya bulan akan menghukum mu!

Di ruangan blog ini meriah dengan keceriaan , kesungguhan , bebelan rambang .. kemudian hadirnya insan insan blogger lain yang sering berkunjung dan menambahkan lagi kerancakan dalam dunia berblogging .

Sungguh , Aku amat merindui waktu itu .. apa khabar agaknya anda semua , Plain , Haz , Lea , Len , Adam , ikan bilis dan ramai lagi ..

Aku harap di mana jua anda semua berada , aku doakan semuanya dalam keadaan yg gembira .

As for me , my life are about to change its course soon , i will be on my own again and this blog will be my home again . Hopefully , ada masa kita semua rancak bergurau senda kembali walaupun sekadar di alam maya . :)

Jujur ikhlas dari aku yg masih lagi vain hahaha

30.5.19

Making my first BJD part 1

<<<< WARNING this post contain doll nudity >>>>

* Cleaning up dust *

Damn , its been 2 years since

I said I'll be back hehe

but here I am

Im back ~~~ And this time I have a reason

to stick around in this blog ,

I finally found a hobby that I can be

interested at for longer than 2 weeks .

I am totally obsessed with it .

I tried so many things before , I believe I could learn to do

anything if I concentrate enough , but for the past several years ..

i kinda lose that focus . I kinda forgot how to be ME.

Nothing feels right , it was painful .. its like im inside a limbo ,

just an empty shell going through the motion . The combination of

social anxiety disorder and mental block is one hell of a nightmare .

For those who battling the same kind of depression as i do ,

trust me , no one can help us .. especially those judgmental a-hole..

So please , find something that could ignite the fire in your soul .

Only you can save yourself .

Okay , enough with that depressing monologue lol

I wanna introduce to you guys my latest project ,

my fire , my muse , my passion which is BJD ,

BJD as in Ball Jointed Doll

credit : popovy sisters bjd

Bjd is a hand crafted dolls with jointed body parts ,

yeah im kinda totally into this recently .

I've been posting progress of my creation on social media ,

but since the progress will include doll nudity it may be inappropriate

and it might make some people feels uncomfortable .

So for the rest of my creation journey , will be mostly documented in this blog .

MAKING MY FIRST BJD

#INKTROVERTBJD

haha i kinda changed my alter ego nickname from

dilladontdodatholyfckthatisocringe

to Inktrovert ,

so people can tell that i like creative stuff

but i have social anxiety issues .
lmao

Bjd blueprint ,

i designed this myself using procreate

on my ipad pro . This is how i want my doll to look like ,

she's gonna be slim THICC ,

cuz i like em gurl that way .

BJD Core

Its time to create the doll's core ,

this core is needed so the actual doll

will have hollow part .

The core supposed to smaller than

the blueprint but I accidentally

made it way bigger so now the actual doll

are going to be even bigger lol .

I'm using polymer clay and aluminium foil the create the core ,

i bought most of the clay supplies at https://www.malaysiaclayart.com ,

and sometimes at nearby art shop that I can find .

look at that curve , my gurl is hawt

The core is baked using air fryer oven , 180c for 10 minutes

* it has to be wrapped in aluminium foil tightly

or the core's surface will be burnt *

After sculpting and baking for hours , the doll's

core is finally done . I used total of 250g of polymer clay .

Which is around Rm18 .

Next will be making the outer layer of the bjd doll

which will be made using a stone paper clay .

Im using La Doll premix clay for the next step,

not sure if its going to be easy to work with ,

since it is an air dry clay type ,

the texture will be different than polymer clay .

The price for this clay is Rm30++ each , (400g)

Testing my doll with clay beads as temporary joint ,

the actual doll , the outer layer will look different than this .

Hopefully it will look close enough to my imagination .

THE END OF PART 1

Thank you for reading this ,

and stay tune for the next part of my BJD creation progress update .

23.10.17

Social anxiety + mental block

This post is edited so it'll reflect the actual emotion
that I'm going through at the moment I wrote this blog .
NOT GONNA HIDE IT ANYMORE

Hi

Im dealing with serious depression .
Its nothing to do my current state of living , or
people that im surrounded with .
Its just me ,its inside me .
The darkness that just wont go away .

I guess it has something to do with my isolated upbringing
and tons of trauma from the past .
Not sure why it affected me so much right now .

This is the kind of battle that i have to go through all by myself .
All my life .

Hopefully everything will get better .

Amin , InsyaAllah .

16.3.17

It has been a while

Im back !

It has been a while since i am no longer active in blogging , but social media has gotten pretty stale and it lacks of " intimate space " to write stuffs , a piece of my mind ..

it feels like if i write an update status,

i am forcing people to read it on their news feed ,

so here i am , another attempt to slowly making my way back to blogging .

I still dont know what kind of 2017 ish blogger i wanna be

but i already signed up for adsense

so i guess i have to create interesting contents

to potentially generate revenues here

anyway here is some of my recent artworks

and i am currently creating an apps !

Will write about all that later :)

im trying my very best to upgrade my digital painting skill

anyway , i will have plenty to write soon

so thats all for now

buh bye

7.1.16

ANIMATION : Toon boom harmony 12

Holy grail of 2D animation !

*i created this gif for a client , do not steal it or there might be consequences

Toon boom is the freaking best of all

for me lah

since 2013 lagi

aku dah pakai toon boom

tapi masa tu paling advance pun

Tb Animate pro 1/ 2

Recently , aku dah try pakai yg paling latest

TOON BOOM HARMONY 12

which is freaking awesomeeeeeeee

tapi superrrr mahal

so aku mmpu pakai trial aje lah :P

so i have tested out the software and made several video test

check it out :)

1. Drawing test

tb harmony 12 simple character design (drawing test ) , total time 8 mins , speed up video x8 ..

im not used to this software yet so yeah excuse me for my bad design, but as for me, the brush is awesome and the cutter tool are super handy , it help to speed up the drawing process a lot . I can use this features in tb animate but it doesnt work really well with sp3 touchscreen device .. harmony 12 is amazing n i only have 20 more days till my trial expired sobssss .

2. Cut out test

tb harmony 12 complex character design and rigging test , it takes me hourssss to create , color , separate the bodyparts and rig the whole character while hearing my husband cursing the other online ps4 fifa player haha

during the rigging process , nothing much changed from previous tb animate , i couldnt find anything new that can accelerate the process . There are def new modern tools/features in there that will help to ease and enhance the rigging part but i haven't explore the whole software yet .

3. Bone deformation tool test

tb harmony 12 deformation rig and animation test ,

i made another character this morning but this time it only took me +-60mins to design n rig the whole char after i learned how to use the deformation tool.

normally i have to cut out all the limbs ,separate them into layers , masking the joints and re-position the pivots which is quite a hassle . With deformation tool i only have to draw a single drawing/layer and apply deformation "bones" on it

imo this amazing tool not only efficiently speed up the whole rigging process but the animation flow also become a whole lot smoother compared to pivot animation .

3. Animation + lip sync test

tbh 12 animation + lip sync test

well ,the lip sync is a bit off .. i need to draw more precise mouth substitution drawings so the lip sync will appear more realistic ..

anyway i had a lot of fun and learned plenty of stuffs with tbh 12 but since its frikin expensive , i might as well stick to my tbh 10 or tba pro2 for the moment.

Overall tbh 12 are super awesome but of course , no matter how awesome it is , depending on software alone is not enough , plenty of Googling, research and practice are necessary to produce a paperless animation ..

So overall i would say
the best features of harmony 12
are the bone deformation tool
mudah , cepat , smooth
and all the lecturer yg ajar animasi
should update their knowledge
and teach this to the students

if anyone interested , im also selling ebook
how to 2d animate in 10 easy step

:D

Till then , merci and aur revoir