Social anxiety + mental block

This post is edited so it'll reflect the actual emotion 
that I'm going through at the moment I wrote this blog .
NOT GONNA HIDE IT ANYMORE 


Hi

Im dealing with serious depression .
Its nothing to do my current state of living , or
people that im surrounded with .
Its just me ,its inside me .
The darkness that just wont go away .

I guess it has something to do with my isolated upbringing
and tons of trauma from the past .
Not sure why it affected me so much right now .


This is the kind of battle that i have to go through all by myself .
All my life .

Hopefully everything will get better .



Amin , InsyaAllah .