Social anxiety + mental block

This post is edited so it'll reflect the actual emotion 
that I'm going through at the moment I wrote this blog .
NOT GONNA HIDE IT ANYMORE 


Hi

Im dealing with serious depression .
Its nothing to do my current state of living , or
people that im surrounded with .
Its just me ,its inside me .
The darkness that just wont go away .

I guess it has something to do with my isolated upbringing
and tons of trauma from the past .
Not sure why it affected me so much right now .


This is the kind of battle that i have to go through all by myself .
All my life .

Hopefully everything will get better .



Amin , InsyaAllah .

It has been a while

                                                           Im back !

It has been a while since i am no longer active in blogging , but social media has gotten pretty stale and it lacks of " intimate space " to write stuffs , a piece of my mind ..

it feels like if i write an update status,

i am forcing people to read it on their news feed , 

so here i am , another attempt to slowly making my way back to blogging .

I still dont know what kind of 2017 ish blogger i wanna be 

but i already signed up for adsense 

so i guess i have to create interesting contents 

to potentially generate revenues here 

anyway here is some of my recent artworks

and i am currently creating an apps !

Will write about all that later :)

im trying my very best to upgrade my digital painting skill 

anyway , i will have plenty to write soon 

so thats all for now 

buh bye